I'll be there just to watch you fall.

So here we go. Yet again I'm sitting here, by myself. I've come to just expect that on a day to day basis...being alone. It doesn't nag at me anymore. Instead, I'm just focused on the tasks at hand. During the day I stay busy, and things get done, moves are made. But at night... At night its not the same. When its dark, my mind starts to burn me. And what keeps the flames alive is knowing that no one is there to help. People say, "I'm here for you.", but so far that hasn't been told in truth. I'm still waiting for someone reliable. Until then, I guess I'll just work on self-resiliency. I suppose its nice to have people who pretend to care, but in the end we are alone. And its what you do in these dark times that defines you. I will not curl up and die. I will charge the next fight head on, because there is always another battle. Believe me, I have the wounds to prove it. I have scars from years past. And sometimes they re-open, and it hurts. But they remind me what I've been through. Don't kid yourself, you have no idea who I am. I will keep my distance, because you've kept me on the outside looking in. But now I see so much clearer. And the things that I've learned have taught me never to trust you. I'll be on my way now. I've found the open road, and I'll drive away to somewhere I won't remember. One day I'll be back. But it won't be because I want to help. You have already rejected that which was given. No. I'll be there just to watch you fall....