First, let me just say: I don't like when radio show hosts say things like, "..now this is a good segue.." Um, you just ruined it. And now I'm annoyed.
On to the next segment.
I find myself in a negative mood often. I am referring to the last two weeks. Typically I try to keep a level head , and do so without much difficulty. However, now the difficulty level has been raised as of late. My belief as to why has to do with a multitude of "things" and circumstance(s).
I find it somewhat depressing that just about anyone I consider a friend seems to have little to no interest in my life. Obviously this reeks of self-loathing. Although nonetheless, it remains true. I have two main pieces of evidence for this conclusion. 1) I receive hardly any texts at all outside from the handful of people I communicate with regularly. No, "Hey, how are you?", "What's new?", and of course not, "Wanna hang out?". To be clear, I don't spend any time feeling sorry for myself. Especially over this. I simply want to convey the concern and frustration that can occur within the social realm. And with that, I am reminded of my second piece of evidence. The wretched Facebook. A simple website of social media that has been bastardized many times over. It may be the doom of the Millenium generation. I digress, that subject is for another time.
Yes, even the lack of response or communication in general, is concerning. Isn't that what it's for? To communicate with others? Your, "friends"? Ha. Yeah right. Maybe that was the innocent (and genius) idea that propelled it into being. But now, Facebook is for the narcissist. Let them read about your life. Oh how quirky, cute, artsy, and cool you are. Take pictures of yourself and pretend you didn't expect a compliment of some sort. Post hundreds of agonizingly mundane links to pictures of animals and unoriginal quotes. Fuck off. You social media parasites.
In closing, I would just like to review.. I text people, who I consider friends, and receive no response at all. How, in this time, is that ever okay? I try to stay in touch and remain involved in my friends lives but it is not reciprocated. Regardless of what they say to my face, or how I "feel", it's true. So, with that, I conclude this entry. I would like to thank you for reading this. No need to comment, or tell me you read this. I appreciate it all the same. Maybe one day things will change. Change for the better.
"The more things change, the more they stay the same." - Jean-Baptiste Alphonse Karr
