You're No Longer Laughing, And I'm Not Drowning Fast Enough

Yeah, I'm laying awake in my bed. I know I should be sleeping, I just can't stop thinking about you. But are you thinking about me?
Tell me the truth, did you mean any of it?
I still read the words you sent me. And when I think of the moments you were next to me, I smile. But those feelings are so abruptly interrupted. Yes, interrupted by this current situation that leaves me alone in the cold. It's starting to feel like you don't care. How is that possible? The girl I met would never have done this. If you're nervous, if you're afraid, if you're not certain, please believe me when I say that you're not alone. I'm trying so hard to be there for you, but you won't let me. Why are you pushing me away, when all I want is to be next to you... Maybe one day you'll see. Maybe once again hindsight will serve you better than the eyes you won't use. But god knows by then it'll be too late. Cuz thats how it works. Didn't I tell you? Yeah, I've told you. Told you how much I like you, but maybe its worse than that...